Detoxication

I felt much better today… so I was back at work – don’t like to sit around at home… And as I promised to myself not to check on any MBA related websites during the working hours I even got some work done ; )
But honestly, it helps not to think every minute of the day about the applications. I keep telling myself: “You did the best you could for the applications. Now be happy to have so much more time for your friends and all the things you always wanted to do here in Japan…” And of course I am happy to have my normal life back – but… yes, there is a but … but during the last months I worked so much for the applications and put so much heart into it that it’s just difficult to let go. I know I only torture myself with thinking about it all the time, and I know I can’t change a thing about what I wrote in the essays or how I presented myself during the interview… but it is so hard to stop dreaming or wondering or thinking about what I could have done better… I should be confident!
So here it is – today’s conclusion: Let’s try to see it sober (kind of oxymoron)… I have a chance to get in. And I don’t make it any smaller or even bigger by thinking about it all the time – it only stops me from thinking about other important things. If I get dinged (let’s hope I wont) I have to live with an MBA free mind… at least till next year’s admission rounds. And if I get admitted (I hope I will!!!!!) I don’t have to worry about dings now. So here it is… my MBA-application-detoxication-plan: After not checking the well known websites for over 9 hours today - my next step is: No MBA sites or MBA related things for 24 hours! . . . . . I know I can do it . . . . . . . . . yes . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I will be strong . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . no problem . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . absolutely no problem.

Ok, time to go to bed. I need some more sleep… after all I'll have an MBA free day tomorrow and lots of work to do after yesterday's absence… Oh, does dreaming about an MBA during the night count as relapse?…